brace yourself, this is going to be deep...
recently i have been been gifted by so many beautiful and brave woman their stories of how my blog, inspiration wednesdays, art and workshops have had such a positive impact in their life. each sharing with me that watching my imperfect process of creating makes them feel whole and full...inspires them to create or make a change in how they see themselves.
i am humbled.
i am grateful.
i am a better person for this exchange.
ART is a journey. we all walk our own path and along the way we evolve, learning more from our failures than we do from our successes and knowing we have so much to learn from the experiences that enter our lives. the fact that my art, that every time i turn on that camera to record my process makes a difference, matters so much to me.
in life, i have made mistakes, struggled too long with the scars of childhood, battled the hurtles of adulthood, lost myself in the process and allowed the negative views of others to rent space in my head while the positive ones just slipped away. i think we all bring some of this to the table when we create and learning to free myself from these negative feelings is something i have been working on for the past 4 years. the fact that this personal & creative freedom is slowly making its way into my work and touching others so positively...
i dont believe in coincidence and know each person along the way on this journey means something and has something to teach me.
as i have come into my 40's i have learned to take ownership of who i am personally, creatively and emotionally. i can now look myself in the mirror and say i truly like who i am. i love sharing my passions for color and art because that is the joy i never allowed myself before holding on to so many of the "issues" of the past not allowing myself the freedom and the purity to live in the moment.
creativity takes courage. that is what inspiration wednesday it all about, having the courage to play. the courage to give yourself permission to fail, the freedom to make mistakes and change your direction and the courage to GROW. its about leaving all the other shit behind and giving yourself an hour or 2 to just be.
the messages i take with me from these woman who have taken the time and had to courage to share their stories with me is that despite how different we might be, our personal struggles, creative hurdles or personal journeys, we are genuinely connected by ART. we may travel down different roads and get lost along the way, but the connections makes a difference, can make us whole again...healing wounds, building confidence, freeing our spirits.
i am grateful everyday for the blessings this journey has given me, for the personal growth and changes i have made along the way and for this platform that extends beyond the reach of just a computer screen and reaches out to touch the human spirit.
every wednesday i practice being strong, stong enough to fail in front of an audience, strong enough to share what i love about creating and strong enough to know i learn more from giving myself wholly on the pages in my journal every wednesday than i would ever gain by taking.
todays post may seem hokey and a bit wordy (ok really wordy for me), but i wanted to share a deep gratitude to all of you that have been a part of shaping who i am today. many of you have travelled this journey with me and some of you are just joining me on this path. if you walk away with anything i hope it is the message that Art transcends.
the message to be open and receptive to life, to see opportunity in the wake of challenge and to live in search of beauty in the human spirit.