this year i really needed to step back from it all and start prioritizing my life.
the word BALANCE, has not only grounded me, but given me permission to be.
spending more time with my family and choosing to be present in the everyday joys and sorrows of the ins and outs of being a mother of pre-teens/teenagers.
i realized, this time with my children is fleeting and i am learning just how much a mothers love is needed as my daughters begin to blossom into women.
as a mother, watching my children transition into each new season of their lives can be a very frustrating, exhilerating and sometimes a painful thing to watch...witnessing their individual struggles, figuring out who they are and what they believe can be overwhelming.
over the past 6 months, payton and i have become very close...she is a brilliant and amazing young woman and is struggling to find her identity, struggling with body image and struggling to find her place in it all.
it is devastating to come to the realization that as a mother i am powerless to it all and that my job is not to fix it, not to correct it, but to support and to give her the space and allow her to become who she needs to be.
the journey is so powerful
as we journey through life, we fail, we make choices
those choices shape who we are...the bad ones often more than the good.
i have to allow my beautiful daughter to find her way
and believe that by walking beside her on her journey, she knows as she falls, i will always be right here to pick her back up.
as a mother i am continuously doubting, "am i doing the right thing?"
yesterday, i realized as i walk along side payton, she is also walking right there along side me on this journey
picking me back up, walking hand in hand with me until i am strong enough to walk alone.